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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 22:18:43 GMT

I must say after watching "The curious case of Benjamin Button" it was one of the best movies I have ever seen. I was very moved and have a new appreciation for life, family, friends, and everyone I have in my life. From watching the movie, I realized how I take things for granted what I have in my life. I realized how important everyone is in your life, whether it be long or short, everyone that comes into your life makes a mark in your life whether it be good or bad, they take part in shaping who you are or who you become. I feel that you get chances in life and they come to you for a reason, I feel that every chances in life you get, you should take them cuz later on in life you will always wonder what would have happened or reqret not taking it. People come and go in this world, as everyone that comes into your life makes a mark in your life, I think the mark that you leave in their lives determines who you are. I've always had a hard time finding a place in this world, not knowing my true worth, not wanting to settle for an ordinary life, I feel I was meant for something better, something special...I'm really not sure how I'm gonna go about making the most of my life and not settling for less than ordinary life, but whether I figure it out or not, I'm gonna make the most of it and not take for granted everyone I have in my life cuz anyone can leave this world anytime. . .

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 00:17:32 GMT

After a 2 hour commute to work to my Sunnyvale office, I got bored in traffic, so I played with my phone camera.

here's me tired, bored, hung over, and getting sick of the 2 hour commute to my Sunnyvale office. this probably also reflect how I feel about life these days. . .

Random: I changed my angel eyes to LED lights

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 08:46:56 GMT

God why do you punish me so much? Am I that bad of a person? I'm losing my faith in everything I believe or believed. I ask for so little but I end up in dissolution. I've feel like I've lost all hope in everything. Please give me a a sign, give me a sign for hope because I'm at my lowest now. Please don't let me down. . .

Monday, November 24, 2008

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 21:40:57 GMT

I've always had a hard time finding a place on this world, never knowing my true worth, or settling for less than an ordinary life. I feel like I was meant for something better, something special. . .

Friday, November 21, 2008

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 08:27:55 GMT

Don't drink and drive! drinking and driving leads to scratches on rims =(

Thank goodness for touch up paint.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 06:28:10 GMT

I need to stop drinking so much, feeling depressed and drinking at the sametime is the worst. I think this past week I've been drinking almost everyday now and out of all stuff, soju! which is even worse cuz u get the fatest hang overs. I feel like nothing is going right these days and I feel like I have no one to turn to or no one understands what I'm going through. I just wish I had something good in my life. One thing for sure I need to stay away from drinking for a while, especially soju. I learned this past weekend, being depressed and drinking soju, makes you do stupid ass stuff. what a way to start off as being 28. I feel so confused about things. I wish I can get some answers but seems like its impossible to get answers. God please give me something to go on, doesn't have to be a big thing, just something.

Monday, November 03, 2008

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 07:19:43 GMT

This past saturday I decided pretty much last minute to celebrate my 28th birthday since my real birthday November 4 would be a weekday. What a fun night it was, I had my birthday dinner at Bucca Di Beppo, then went to playground in Japan Town, then went to karaoke, but by the time I was at karaoke I was too fucked up to sing, but was barely able to sing one back street boys song which I sang half of it in the hallway and some white girls passing by laughing at me. I don't think I'll be having soju for a long time, I need to take a break from drinking, I don't think I can hang anymore like I use to, hangover are more longer and painful. . . At least it was a fun night. I'm thankful to everyone who came to my birthday. Thank you all. . .

Me at Bucca

Group pic at Bucca

Friday, October 31, 2008

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 02:39:36 GMT

Where does the time go. . . I'll be 28 in just 5 days, I can't believe I'll be 28, I'm getting so old. Although I accomplished a lot of things and so much crap has happened to me while I was 27, I don't feel content with myself in life compared to where I thought I was going to be when I was 25. I guess no one is really happy or content with themselves on where they are in life if they were to compare where they thought they were going to be 2, 3, 4 years ago. Maybe I'm having a late 20's crisis. . . I dunno. All I know is I don't like the person I am. . . I wish I was a better person than I am. . . oh well life is short, might as well live it up. . .time to get fucked up!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 04:35:05 GMT

It seems like these days nothing is going right, theres nothing to look forward to, nothing really exciting. Everyday is the same, going through each monotonous day, day by day, nothing new at all, absolutely nothing to look forward to. I wish I can have something good, it doesn't have to be a big thing, just something. . .

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 05:55:24 GMT

Here are some pictures from a couple weeks ago where I randomly decided to join in for Michelle's old Kumon teacher's birthday, Stacey, looks pretty young for a 40ish lady. I forgot what the place was but it was one of the most expensive lounge I been to in SF, where calamari cost around 30 bucks. I know not to go there again, haha.

Me, Michelle, Stacey, and Stacey's friend.

Group pic

Michelle buzzed and happy.